E01 · Dios no deja de llamarte

Talina: Bienvenida, soy Talina, tu coach católica y estás en Habitare, donde tenemos conversaciones para reconocer lo que Dios ha puesto en nuestro corazón, sanar lo que lo frena y dárselo a Dios, porque en él está todo lo que buscas.

Talina Padilla: How are you? Talk to I'm fine. you? I'm starting this series of lives, of stories of Sia Dios. So, I wanted you share your story Because feel that many times... We feel called to something and sometimes people don't know what it or how accept it, or how start. And sometimes they don't know if it's God who is talking to not. Before we start, let's introduce ourselves. you you I'm Talina Padilla. I'm a But the truth is that my center... where I found out that wanted God to in middle of everything. So I I experience with life coaching, but I felt that something was that God was So, in the end, found out, you know, in the United States, a Catholic life coach and I certify me. So I went with her and I loved it because at the end of the day, they are very human but deep down there God. So my goal is that women find that, that find that God is in everything, whether it's your family vocation, or your vocation of social or your vocation of business, that that God can be in the center of everything, he is fighting with any aspect of your life, but on the contrary, he wants find you in all aspects of your life. Of course, how wonderful, your work, I loved it, well, nothing, I am Alexandra, for those who do know us, here on your account. I am the founder of the Association Las Manos de Maria and I will start talking about everything that was God's It's a long story because I'm older now. I'm 48 years and God has me since I very little. I come from a Catholic but non-practitioner And for some reason, God wanted to call me was and give me a certainty that He was in my life and that He wanted me close So, since I was very young, was in the church And what you about the call, well, yes, that's I've tried to many people understand it from the heart. Look, when God calls, He gives peace. interior. una paz real porque es como nadie hablar de sus diferencias, ¿verdad? No aceptar nuestras diferencias. Y la paz de Dios es más bien un sentimiento interior que te llena, que te da tranquilidad a pesar de estar en la dificultad, que te da seguridad de estar, de que valió la pena lo que te esfuerces por hacer. So could be at very old age. Maybe I'll tell you, I've had calls all the time in my life because I think I'm very stubborn. Since I very little. God was me and called me and called called called and every time I called I feel that each stage he calls something different. Of yes, of course, of course. Every time I call he calls me again. So what could a 7-year-old like? What were the first calls I felt? Well, company. Company. security of a love that loves you, that welcomes you, that doesn't judge you. Even though you're going through some and things, it only loves you. It only wants accompany you and to give And then when you maybe you to the of the guard when you're afraid and you calm. Maybe you're afraid, hug and you say goodbye and you feel that with you. Those are the things. that a little can feel, And then, the bigger I think the call, although you will me too, so that you us your call, how to know, Ermir. I have liked it, throughout my life God has taken me to many places where they can give training, and then in those places have hearing things, So in one place was the fruits. What is God? God is love and the call to love is to the truth. It is order, it love, is truth. If you see that is what you finding with your decisions, the that God gives you, then it is God. Because your life your emotions You to right first God, then your vocation, whether it's or being priest or being a layman. If you're a layman, then family. And there, if you the right decision and you there's peace in that decision, why? Because evil can be as apostolate. So you say, God calls to a lot of but you see you your family, that you leave your friends, it is also the way we do it. Maybe the call is the right one, if it was to vocation, to those apostolates, but you want to me, I want to shine, I want to and well, no, he called you so that together with you they more than inviting your family, inviting your friends. and would be disunion, but everyone would be doing that too. I don't know. Yes, it makes a of sense because in the when you know how God God always tends to union, always tends to love, always tends to truth. at the end of the we are able to know the truth because God made able to know Him and love Him. So when you those elements, As you say, is ordered and it helps you to keep yourself the right Because as you say, are very subtle. Because you can be well-guided, but if you lose attention or you start to neglect the important or the order of things, you lose yourself. Of Or for example, could think of one of those examples where can go the other For example, he you the apostolate. That's I said different moments. There was a moment in my life, I was involved in something in the church. I've been a catechist since I was 11 years so I myself to the content of the Bible to the minister, everything that comes to mind. And then there was a moment when I said I really wanted to serve in the parish, but I was in a stage in my marriage that had to dedicate time And that's why I don't always bring... Don't always make them Maybe they ask you something and there was a struggle in my marriage for that God asked me for. I they didn't agree. And then, I had to discern all the time, to if this was God's not. And then there was a moment when I said, maybe my call is to be with my husband. And I have to give up. to I like or what they call me. Because it's the easiest sometimes. Because you're going have a great here, everyone wants you to And here your home, it's a difficult time to dedicate. So you had to offer, not go. And it was illogical. How can God want you not to share this with your souls? Well, that's what wanted. I wanted to share, to live the most important which was my family. And that's where I purified, because as I learned to listen more, to be more empathetic with my husband, was to be more empathetic with him So it's always about serving in a way. Maybe you have to serve at home, the sick, at the sick at the sick mom, or at the son. Exactly. Exactly, at the of the day, if there is an order, God gave us an order of charity, an order of love, and if you that order, you will be wrong, you are obeying God. Even that, as you say, this moment obeying was a preparation, it was even a change of your vocation, but the contrary, it a preparation of your vocation. Yes, that's it can happen. Or it can happen to I was very interested when you think that they ask you to in front of everyone and sometimes being behind, preparing the copies to which they are to give the speech, making the call to the father to confirm it, sending the message to the parents. That is your job. And that's how you're going save souls because no would do it better than you. And you don't want to be in front of Or you're afraid to in front it and you think it only works in front it. And it works in a million ways. Yes, where God puts you. Yes. And then, I want you tell me if there was a fear or a doubt that stopped you from taking that step to what you feel now that it's your vocation. What God is asking now. Well, ok, especially now, example, what you doing? And then you me how it was, how did you call to do what you doing right To do this. Well, think I am Juan without fear. this is what God tells me. Wait, have faith, have faith, don't be afraid, but have faith. Well, now what I'm doing is this from Maria's I've always been... dentro de la casa de Dios pero pues siempre perdidos, bueno yo siempre perdida y entonces pues un día como que dijo ya estuvo bueno estarte este ya sé que das esto al otro pero ya estuvo bueno de estarte educando ahora sí te vas a ir a la la educación real y me mandó con con con la Virgen a Meyugori y desde el 2015 que fui la primera vez a Meyugori sí que hay un antes y un después porque ya fue como Not to a good but to one step further. So I started the Association of the Hands of Mary, which does three things. It's to to Meyugori, to take groups pilgrims to Meyugori, true pilgrimage, accompanied by following the of the Church, seeking a good pastoral, trying to it for real. And the other is to content, mean, dynamics, material to sell. It started out as a to priests and pilgrims to Medjugorje. As it grew, I'm you I'm Juan Sinead, as it grew, we do to help all the causes we can. Orphanages, the Monterey the nuns, the bare-footed All those who ask us now, we are including our production to the guys down, so that they can pack our things, so now I God for Yes, To be able to do everything we have to do. And the other part was evangelizing on social media. And how do say God to the raw? I am kind of raw. I go to the raw and I had a life of work. I organized events. since before I got married, I started doing that. And I everything like the event Party and I things. And so I always had everything organized. And now, with the association, started doing the rough And we are just in that process of wanting to and say, let's we grew too much, God is order. We need to order to this, right? But the call is like that, it's bit of a you you're praying and you do it live. So I do it live from Rosario. Sir, what do I with the game? Do this game. Sir, what do I with that? Talk to this So what he's asking me, I'm doing it. But I'm realizing that you're getting really and that it's necessary to order. And sometimes it's part of the invitation, because as you say, you're not going to heaven alone, you're going take people wherever are. So, yes, it's an invitation to more people. Yes, to more. I realize that he's putting on the masks, but now I need to everyone. Put on people too. No, can happen to I've always said that you afraid, that is, my phrase, to stand in of people or to talk, because before, I really like that. Now I think I'm suffering a little bit. digital because I like to people's when I'm talking to But I also like when they that's I get when I physically. But what happens? I would stand in place, I would say, why are you afraid? Get ready, do everything that is on your side. They tell you, this topic or do that. Get ready as best you can, as best you can, because God did think of you in a Superman or a Superwoman. She about your capabilities. I love what said to Conchita, the Apostle of the Cross, because she said she was going to with the donkey. She said she was going the donkey, I'm the So Jesus said, with the tail of the donkey, they the... the who play the violins, the bow with which the violins are Imagine that I'm going to with the whole So we are that whole with whom God can do great things. I love that. And so that's it. I think don't be afraid. It's a of competition or who does right or who does worse. It's what God wants to And sometimes in one thing you say, I didn't say anything, well, to others he did. I knew what hearts he wanted to about. Don't be afraid. That's what you say. And truth is that I the multiplication of the bread. Because sometimes That's right. You see your five breads as ridiculous. You what are to do with this? Who am I? But he's in charge of multiplying. He's asking you multiply. He's asking you five breads. He's asking you And he's in charge of multiplying. Yes, that's right. To trust, right? To trust in his trust. At the end of the day, trusted that mission. knowing that we are going to do together. I feel that happens, that we think we are alone, but he is there. He invited you to part of the team, he did throw you wheel. the best things I have done or that have come out of the games that we sell, well, I do them, the ones that are original, the lottery and that obviously already existed, but I done them in the most... I'm less coherent. That's where we the Lord act. Because if we don't, we spoon. Do Did you ever feel a fear or a desire you're going give This isn't mine, this isn't working. You went through those moments and how did you that? When I feel... I my fear is sometimes not... I So, how did those moments I tried to down and know that God didn't respond to the second. Well, sometimes I but I that His time is not my time and that maybe I'm more accelerated. So, I tried to silent. I to be silent not so much for activities, to if it's what you want. Tell me what you Yesterday in the communion, I send me your but also tell me what you don't want me anymore. Or if you want It's impressive because sometimes you're just at that moment and they you a message. That this helped me lot, or that it, or there's a testimony of something. For me, I with a soul receiving something, is worth it. But if it's the... I'm afraid to that I don't want to but that you want me to do it. And for that, the only thing I can do is silence. I not even a prayer of many words, but to go and in the communion and say, I'm going to be quiet so you can tell me what I do. And so I try. I the prayers at that time, I a week to The most I can do is silent and guide me. stop talking. I feel that sometimes we talk a lot in Just before I said, hey, I a time not to shut up. I have lot of time to be talking to you. And not to up to see what you want tell me because maybe you wanted to talk me and I didn't hear So that's what I to silence, fear is more like that. I'm so active that sometimes I I grab the palm tree without God wanting us do So my guarantee is not to do anything without praying. I prayed yesterday, just yesterday we were in a hurry, I remember Mother Teresa. That's I think all the references are useful to us. that she would ask the missionaries and they would say, if what you need is to work. And she would no, because if we who we work we're going to do it wrong. And so we were praying because in the mornings here in the office we pray some morning prayers, having the Holy the blood of Christ and a consecration to the Virgin. And then I said, maybe today we don't pray for the blood anymore. Inside, people wanted to yes, we've been there. I thought that the angel of the guard, the conservation of the Holy was And I said, who we working I mean, I'm to calm down and I'm going to be in prayer. In prayer. What happens to me is feeling that I'm living the moments. For example, when you talk a lot in prayer, maybe you're not in prayer And yesterday I I came to Mass. I thought about I thought thought thinking about the pending things, and nothing will come it. So what am to Well, I'm to stay quiet. I mean, I'm live this moment. God is going me the answer. God is going give me the answer if I and I feed on this. And so, because I didn't realize it, and the whole mass, the whole prayer was already doing a conversation, and it makes you not realize anything. So it's more the fear of not doing what God wants. When I've felt terror, I get rid of it. In the difficulties of life, like this phrase, I surrender to your feet. That's I've felt. To grab me like this, but lying down on the cross, this, I can't. If you something... Oh, no, no, no, no, no, Yes. And then you feel, well, you've had a of and I feel that at the end of day, progressively, God's goal is to unite us with Him. But you've had a of yeses in your life. You feel that there's a change. between like the before yes, you know? I before you wanted me yes, I how is it? then you yes, yes, yes, it transforms completely your life. I think the most difficult the ones that have transformed my life is when I give it control. I how do give it control? Because I say, let's I do want to follow you. What you me to surpasses me. I don't know how love either. I don't know how or love so well. So, I'll Maybe in some moment in life I very strong of pain, darkness, that I had to tell myself, hey, kill me because I feel like I can't anymore. I can't tell you that if tomorrow I want to go to heaven. Something I'm sure of is that I want to go with you. So I I can't. And when I those real gestures of saying I can't, I like that's when God transformed me more. And so, moments in my life Maybe I can tell too. I said, I'm going live, living, leaving myself your hands. And then, the days you've been... you realize that he is transforming your heart. Because you always say yes to In whatever you You whatever can. Imagine, you have forgive something very strong. Maybe you don't feel the deep love for that person, you say yes. I do want forgive him. I don't know how, but yes. So you always say yes. Yes. Yes, and you in his hands. You bring here thinking, but how? But possible. Yes, yes, yes. And after a month you say, Hala, how did I it? How did I Well, it's already happened to me. It's already happened to me. I leaving it in God's well, it's already happened to and I don't even how it happened to To tell him yes. Not you saying, today I'm to I'm say words of love. Today I'm to say... No, I didn't a plan. I just left. Why? Because it was very difficult for me. When it's that difficult, I do propose things. It's that difficult for a person. Well, I'm going propose to listen. I'm going to propose not to it around. I'm going to propose... But I feel that the more you're thinking, the harder it to forgive, the harder it is to treat the person, but... I'm going to try to how you see it. Or I'm going to pray. I'm going pray for that person. But really, the problems have been solved in my life by abandoning myself it. Because after a while, even if I haven't done what I wanted, I can live it more in peace. I suddenly realized it and I... Yes. Every time I leave, it doesn't I loved what you said. Yes, it has a thousand ways. Yes is not always an action. Yes is sometimes an abandonment. The yeses in life, of executing, has been that you the catechism, now come here to missions, now come here to... Is that right? So that can happen to Yes, that's where you say, well, you're really serious. mean, to your will before ours, because we in it. And let them day day. Day by day, ask yourself. We live in such a hurry that sometimes we feel that it's to be very difficult, like doing these moments of the If you your heart, if your heart you have put the anxiety of asking for something, an apostolate, of a spiritual it is because it is talking to you. No one else gave you that idea, is, curiosity is also your heart so use logic, right? You want everything with signs. No, and is that apart I feel that many times we lost as the goal, that is, because at end of day I God wants all of this with us. He wants to with us. It's very difficult to be present with someone if you have a things in your head. The person can be next you and you don't turn to see them because you have a thousand things in your head. And the end of day, He gave you all this so you could with Him. Exactly. what we live... A father said a little while and said, son, I've very badly all my life. I have to go back and start again. You live like you pray and I... That's why I so fast. If we can find peace, can live in greater coherence. It's difficult, but it's worth it. And sometimes it's like, we live by getting what we have to do in a hurry. And that's how this father you decided to your house because I never asked myself what I was leaving, but they asked me to do it if I had do it. They asked me to I go. You're taking out what you have to do and you're realizing that you're leaving what you have live. The moment in your life that you have to live. To be in your family, which is very beautiful. It's very nice to live in peace, with so much haste or so much concern. Sometimes we a rush to do everything the time. And the truth is that there is a stage. You can enjoy time with your children, can enjoy time with your family. And then will a time when can enjoy other things, like a learning, a social something like that. But not everything the same time. Yes, and everything souls and your soul too, God does everything. You offer everything, offer that work of yours, that which you sacrificing, it be something good. I loved it. You, coach, a psychologist mine, put us in reflection, saying, write down the feelings you have in the day, because feelings generate thoughts and that's we like this. I started to see that at time I was stressed, a certain time I was stressed, at a time I was stressed. Why? I don't want to be stressed at all times. And so I said, very bad. That's I was you, you live like hours, very bad. Because in the morning I do the live, I enjoy so and end up with so peace. What do I to take away so peace? Or do I have to work? And that's where I realized, have to have order. Because disorder sometimes generates a lot Much stress. And I what you said about the prayer, that they well, should be in mission, but no, pray because then you forget. I feel that is very important because it also gives a guide to your brain. Because sometimes we think that action is what has to be done and if we don't do it, everything falls and therefore you get stressed. But instead, when you pray first, you order it and as who says, it gives the signal to your brain that everything is fine, that we do need to that everything is going to It to to serve, to see it in others, creation, the interior. To live fully every day, not stressed out. Or get 100 % And be 100 % I used to get at the best you could angry at. Without offending the other person. Maybe I excited and sharing what I felt and everything, but the best you could do. Every day is the best you could do. And that will give you peace. Kids are kids all day. Maybe you how do goodbye? And you think it invites you to big things. Go to Tink Motu, open a channel. Maybe won't open a channel or go Tink Motu. But every day it tells you, smile when you get there is no peace in your house, do your peace. You to need to affectionate, you need to affectionate. Look at the trees, feel loved. Look at the mountains, well, I have mountains look at the mountains, feel loved. Every day, the treasure that is getting to people, everyone in their interior has a thought and a way of seeing things differently and listening to enriches lot. Those are the yeses. The yes that you were running and a friend and wanted to you and the saying... Sacrificing your agenda, everything for sitting down, or that your son wanted to tell you something, or that your husband wanted to... And he doesn't beg you, he's going beg sit down. He's like wanting to talk to someone and if you weren't there, you already lost They're yes's. All day long, it's a yes God in every action of love. I yes to listening to anyone, yes helping everyone, yes to feeding, yes stopping to give someone a smile. Those are the yes's. Yes, I love it. What would you to a woman who feels a desire, a call in her heart, but doesn't know where start? She know where start. depends on how she feels it. What call is she feeling? But think she's nourishing herself everywhere. The change is to start talking to God. Maybe the first change is to start talking to God. Dedicate time to God. know His Word, go to sit down the a little while, confess more often, so that you can also take of your state of grace, make moments of silence in your day. If God wants, start by nourishing yourself Him, by letting yourself God's love. Amada por Dios porque queremos sacar de un bote que no hemos llenado O sea primero hay que el amor es consiste en el que él nos amó primero Tú vas a amar con el amor que ya experimentaste de él cuando tú no has sentido la misericordia de Dios difícilmente vas a querer ser tan misericordioso con los demás cuando no te has sentido infinitamente amada tampoco vas a poder dar ese amor ni a tu familia ni a los demás entonces pues ir viviendo en coherencia Fill yourself Him and let yourself by others. Fill yourself with Him and see others Obviously you yourself in in prayer you will see yourself with Him. You will let go of what you can be by a spiritual like Cresco, everyone. God is so varied as we are varied. So someone will need to be... silencios, bueno silencio lo necesitamos todos pero alguien necesitará música, alguien necesitará escribir, necesitará leer, o sea te irán diciendo una guía de por donde, acompáñate, busca una comunidad, Dios nos invita a vivir en comunidad, no viviendo de forma individual, somos todos unos, la iglesia, únete a la iglesia, sabe a ver ahí a tu parroquia que hacen, que grupo hay, donde pudieras Perteneceros a buscar un lugar donde crecer en comunidad. Eso lo que yo diría. Ay, me encanta. Bueno, te quiero agradecer muchísimo este espacio. La verdad es que, wow, yo llevo así como mil notas de todo lo que dijiste. Me encantó, me encantó. Porque sí, sea, efectivamente se ve, o sea, como que siento que sí hay esa, esa pauta que todos tenemos que haber. Pues sí, es Dios, es Dios lo que está buscando, es la unión y es el amor. Y la verdad es que ahorita lo que acabas de decir me encantó porque Before acting, be with him. Before acting, listen to get closer to him. And it's very difficult to be wrong or to do wrong because you're with him. And know him. Think of as a friend. You're going start a relationship with a friend, you have to know Sometimes we make up God, that's I talk a about knowing the Word because it's how he wanted to himself. And then based on knowing that, you know how they be. How would God's What would be his pedagogy? What would God in this situation? Thank very for inviting me and for being here sharing with me. Thank you.

Talina: Thank you for joining me in this episode. If you that God is calling you to else, but there are fears, wounds or thoughts that are stopping you, I'll that I some spaces available for Catholic one-on-one. It is an accompaniment to help you recognize what God put in your heart, heal what is stopping you and respond with greater freedom to your call. If you more information, send me a message on my Instagram. Y si este episodio te ayudo, te agradecería mucho que te suscribieras, dejaras una reseña y lo compartieras con alguien más. Hasta la próxima. Y recuerda, en él está todo lo que buscas.